You Are Not Behind

I tend to overthink about my future… a lot. I’m constantly seeing TikToks or Instagram posts of girls my age “landing their dream job” at 20 years old, and I’m over here with only one internship under my sleeve and a job I had in high school that has nothing to do with what I want to do in the future. No actually, I worked at a trampoline park when I was 16. Of course you’re not going to have a prestigious job at 16 (well maybe) but still, you get the point.

I have to constantly remind myself that I am not behind, and just because I may not have had this miraculous moment, it will happen, whether or not it is in 2 years or 10. There is too much pressure and judgement on your measurement of success, and I personally believe that’s really just bs. As long as you are happy, I would definitely call that a success.

I get so freaked out thinking about my resume, and the thought of applying for a job without a strong resume turns me away so fast. However, I have to again remind myself I have to start somewhere, and that there is a job or internship out there that wants to be my first.

As women (and men) it is so easy to compare ourselves to other people. whether it be clothes, money, jobs, relationships, etc. it’s almost like we can never be happy with who we really are. But that is so out right now, and what’s in is confidence, self love, being content with where you are in life and trusting the process.

At first I was super hesitant about studying abroad. All I could think about is how I’m missing a whole semester of work opportunities or getting my name out in what I want to do. But when else am I going to be able to say I had the opportunity to live in Rome for 4 months? This is by no means me saying to not go after your career right now and be lazy. This is me saying do what you want and when an opportunity appears, go for it. Things will work out when they are ready to. You might feel behind, but really you are exactly where you need to be. Take the chances for yourself, and know it will all be okay.

p.s. i’m no pro at life so take or leave what I have to say. These are just some of my thoughts as a 20 year old with no idea what's going to happen after college.